E cerco sempre di più di quel che trovo e lo sai: accontentarmi non è possibile se tu sei, tu sei, tu sei, se tu sei molto di più.
Neeed to sleep! I woke up at 5 today. 7 hours sleep in two days! Waaaaa! Mummy needed help to clean the holidays house in Mondello because we had to welcome a family there and also another in Palermo, a lot of work in a day! In fact she was very tired at dinner. I’d have liked to have stay in Mondello to go to the beach, but I really needed to sleep. I even fell asleep on the sofa while waiting for my mum to finish cleaning the kitchen so that I could keep working there! When I arrived home, I had lunch and made a hole in the sofa.
In the evening I watched an episode of The Vampires Diaries 5 (I’m finally finishing it and then I have to watch the first season of The Originals and, as promised to Asia, the third and fourth of Teen Wolf…yeees, I’m very good at keeping up my fave series…don’t you see….?)…and I was going to watch another when Alberto called me and asked me out! I purposed even to come picking me up. It was very nice of him! But…I couldn’t. I didn’t want to get problems with dad and didn’t want to argue anymore, so I just turned it down. And if for the first time I thought to do something in hiding, I couldn’t do it either because my parents would have been home in a couple of hours. We talked at the phone for an hour but I didn’t notice it until we finished! He’s funny, I laugh a lot…but sometimes it’s like he’s addicted to make humor…also without….thinking. He doesn’t need to listen to all I have to say about something, he cut me off and keeps talking and making humor, but surprisingly he has the answers also for what he didn’t give me the time to say. It’s so weird! Ahah He’s an entertainer. A show man. Medicine isn’t his way. I still find a little awkward talking to him at the phone. I need face-to-face time to get used to people. After that hour I told him I had to go…he asked me where and I replayed “nowhere” and he said that I had said I had to go. Weird pt. 2 ahah I wanted to watch The Vampire Diaries before going to have a shower to go out…and the less you make guys think you care the better. I’ve noticed it in these last months. People love struggling because of feeling refused. The more you don’t get through to people the more they get through to you. The world revolves in the wrong direction. We said we could meet in the night or in the next days, but although he tried to come to Mondello, he had to go in another place and we couldn’t meet. We’re meeting on Friday. He wanted to tell me that his promise about bringing me to watch a good starry sky is true…and that every promise is a debt for him. I spent my night with Zummo, Cla, Ciccio, Aurora and others on the beach. Giulio, a friend of Zummo’s, came here from Modena for holidays. Adriano turned up the music when Giulio gave us a lift. That sense of freedom with the glass oneped and the music and the wind!
All for today,
Yesterday I went to Mondello with Zummo and Ciccio. The sea wasn’t as clear as usually. Actually I’m very surprised that this year it’s always very clear. Nothing to envy to other islands! It could be for the weather. It’s a strangely colder summer than the ones we’re used to here. That’s good so that I can still sleep in my bedroom without the need for conditioned air. Summer is summer: it’s so strange this way. But I appreciate that I’m not diyng for heat.
We were at Manfredi’s in the evening, because we wanted to meet all together before Asia, Manfri and Condi left and Zummo, Claudio and I went to Etnaland. Asia fell asleep in the evening (as usual) and was very late (as usual). So I uselessly felt guilty for not going there very early. We played Taboo! I had done it only once with Miryam when I was in middle school but didn’t know the real rules! It was so funny! We made girl vs boys! Condi felt winner because I said I had never played it before and Zummo boasted to be very good at it…but karma’s done his job and we girls won! Ahah I wanted to go bed at midnight, but I couldn’t sleep before 2 am. Manfri needed to talk. Maybe he’s in love. And I’m happy. And I’d be more if he could be afraid less, surprise Asia and get her to fall for him. It could be the right time! I don’t want to tell Asia about it, because she wouldn’t like to know. Everything would lose magic! I believe in the magic of crush ahah without magic they’re nothing. She need magic and I want her to get it this time.
I slept only two hours and I have to wake up at 5 am tomorrow. I don’t know how but I’m still alive and hope to survive! Tomorrow I have to help mummy clean the house in Mondello. I hope not to be too tired for a swim after work! Today was a great one! We finally went to Etnaland! I almost still can’t believe it! We haaaad so much fun! A very good time! And the two times in Jungle Splash and last two slides of the day in the Black Hole have been a brilliant idea! Thank you, Claudio, love you for these things. I had also some slides with Valentina, Zummo’s girl, and Francesca, I’m really glad of having a good time with them. I won my fear of Twin Twister! I got it this timeee! The yellow tube took me luck.
When we were on the pullman for coming back home, I listened to some music (at a point Adriano, Zummo’s brother, stole my iPod first, then we listened together to some Green Day, Muse, Coldplay and Red Hot Chili Peppers…everything I have of Red Hot ahahah I thought he was sleeping, so I chose some calm songs, but then he suddenly opened his eyes and told me to change, that’s how we turn to more rock!). When I was listening to Khaled I found myself smiling alone with my eyes closed, as I was crazy! Luckily everyone was happily sleeping. I imagined myself with my friends going to “Kebab” (how we call La Traviata, our usual kebab restaurant in the Olivella) and then at a point arrives the man with his speakers integrated bike and turns “C’est la Vie” on and I start to dance with him and Sabri comes out on the doorstep and watches smiling, that smile. Sweet. Warm. (I don’t know why I imagined to sit around the table with Zak and Badr, but ok). And I felt so happy dancing there…that song puts me always in a good mood! I love its video of all those guys dancing! Above all hip-hop! And there’s a dance step it’s years I wished I could learn…and finally I did this year thanks to Federica! I’m also getting addicted to one of A Fault in Our Stars’ songs! “Boom Boom Clap”! Gabriele tagged me in a video of Kyle Hanagami dancing on it! His choreography is incredible! “Some things never change” said Kyle. Gabriele and I never change. I hope. He knew I would be addicted to that (and I know Gabriele will be dancing with Justin Timberlake around the world in some years). I can’t even figure it out whether I love the song and stop or I love that choreography, so that I started to love that song. It’s been stuck in my head for 24 hours!
Alberto keeps getting in touch with me. He texted me also some verses of a song saying something like “I’ll take you the moon…” ahahah and it reminded me about Alessandro. He promised me a star once. Maybe it was our first conversation. Without maybe. It was a little weird but funny, we were joking!
“Alexander, so you want to conquer the world!”
“Even the moon! And I’ll take you that or even a star if you want!”
…or something like that.
I told Alberto that a guy promised me a star and he said that guy was a lier ahah Alberto seems addicted to watching the night sky as I am lately. He promised to take me in a nice place to watch it. Too many promises in my life. But he makes me smile. He’s always so…esuberant?!
I really need to sleeeeep.